True love or simply stupidity???

Tell me why you're so hard to forget?
Eventhough you're the one who make things worse,
you're the one who make me cry,
the one who broke my trust,
the one who hurt me the most,
and the one who broke my heart...

Shouldn't i hate you for that?
Shouldn't i despise you after all the things you've done?
Shouldn't i refuse to hear your voice?
Shouldn't i rejected all your calls?
Deleted all your messages?
Wasn't i suppose to avoid from seeing you?
WASN'T I????!!!

So why didn't I?

Why are you still the one that i love?
Why are you still the one that i miss?
The only one that i dreamed of?
Why is it your voice that i wanted to hear?
The one that i wanted to meet?

Why????!!!

And you...
You are the villain in this story....

Shouldn't you ask for my forgiveness?
Shouldn't you fill a bit remorse?
Shouldn't you feel guilty?

Tell me...
Why is it so easy for you to move on?
Why is it so easy for you to smile?
Why is it so easy for you to forget the things that had happen,
the things you've done?
Why were you the one who is happy with someone else beside you?

Why????!!!

Denial...(Sunday, August 23, 2009)

I used to tell myself that i dont need u...
I dont need love...
Its juz burden...
Its juz some sort of obstacle...

But, there r also tymes when i miss u so badly...
When all i want to do is talk to u on da phone 4 hours...
Telling u how much i miss u...
How much i wanted to c u at that tyme...
My heart ache 4 u...

Deep down inside,
i still love u...
Still miss u...
Still want u to be by my side again...
Like the old days...

I never regret the things we've gone through...
I never regret knowg u, though i told u i did once...
The truth is, if i can turn back times...
I wont change anythg...
I will do it all over again, coz i really2 love u...
Always have and always will...

I dont know what to do...
I'm juz too scared to admit to u...
I'm paranoid...

Ur the best thing tat happen in my life...
If i could juz told u tat...
hmmm..... Guess u'll never know...

Unexpected surprise~

I just finished two tests for today. Mandarin oral test and accounting. Sigh*
Mandarin was fine, but account was freaking hard. I've never did any exercise that ask that type of question. The type of question that you can't even find in past years exams. I don't think its tricky. Its not tricky, its complicated!!! I don't blame the lecturer for putting that type of question in the test, however, shouldn't they teach us first before asking us to answer it??? How do they expect us to get high carry marks if they do that??? Aaaarrrrrgggghhhhhhhh!!!!